Fat Tuesday

I have definitely lived up that name today!! I plan on taking full advantage of the fact that lent begins tomorrow though. I'm not a religious person by any means, I mean I don't even really believe in heaven and hell. But I am going to take the opportunity for myself to use lent as a means of further disciplining myself and furthering my advancements on myself. I'm not quite sure what that means for me as of yet. I think I may require myself more gym time and to plan out my meals and stick to them for the weeks to come. No extras! Everything will be planned, even desserts..I mean lets not kid myself!! I'm not going without those ;)  I think it would be in my best interest to require more sleep as well!! :)

Positive outlook

I am 24 yrs young!! I own a house! I have a good job! I am going to school and have good grades! I do my best on a daily basis! I love myself!! I love my friends! I love my family! I love my hobbies! I make time for the gym!! I eat healthy! I have an awesome dog! I constantly am trying to improve myself!! I am beautiful! I am funny! I am smart! I'm outgoing, a total catch!! I don't have any debt! I smile often!! I have so much to be thankful for!! I just wanted to make sure its known! A lot of people, including myself on occasion complain about what they don't have or what they want..but I have so much an I love my life the way it is! Nothing in life is perfect, so I'm going to enjoy it just the way it is!! I am excited about my future for the first time in a long time! I have goals and aspirations and as long as I surround myself with positive people who love me and continue to work hard, I will achieve them all in time!

I need an assistant!!

Busy busy busy!! Thats all I've been lately! I'm finally figured out how not to sleep but function at optimal efficiency!! My calendar is filled all the way out till MAY!!! Yes you heard me correctly, May! Not one weekend am I completely free to relax at home. Its crazy! I literally just went through my phone trying to find time but no. I work, or have visitors every weekend! Anyone know of an assistant I can hire for free?! ;)
Oh and I need more hours in the day and the gym to stay open later..and a winning lottery ticket too please! Thx!!!

Roller coasters are fun!!

I think its a terrible thing to say that life lately has been a roller coaster or ever is because roller coasters are a blast!! When life has its ups and downs its a mere part of living..something like living in California.There are bound to be earthquakes that cause you to stumble, and then there are some that are ground breaking and turn your world upside down! We all weather our own storms and learn to cope with the changes. Lately I've been having my migraines which keep me from eating properly, sleeping and exercising but thats no excuse not to pick myself up on good days and work my butt off to make it better! Today is a decent day but unfortunately traffic caused me to only get in 15 mins at the gym and unfortunately I'm baking today and who could resist my baking??! Yesterday I made white bean cupcakes!! Today I made apple, banana, zucchini muffins!! Awesome!!! So today life is a roller coaster, bc I'm having a blast!! :)  Who knows what tomorrow brings..hopefully clear skies and stable ground!

Cooking, baking, wine...

So everyone knows I love to cook. I love baking too. Yesterday I made black bean brownies..they have more of a texture of almost a fudge but they are amazing!! I love a good glass of red wine, especially with company. Today I've been reading through recipes and it has just been a perfect day! I woke up this morning and went for a run, showered, came to work, did my weigh in :)  Was happy to see I'm still holding at my old goal and looking forward to reaching my new goal. I love finding recipes that give me ideas for new recipes rather than trying tried and true ones. I can't wait for the day I get to come home from work and cook for a man and potentially one day kids too :)  I love making people happy with my food. People have often asked why I don't go to school to be a chef. Its not that I haven't thought of it but I don't necessarily like the hours. My dream would be to open a breakfast/lunch place similar to that of my Coffee Shop in Gilbert. I would def expand more upon the menu they have and make it my own. Maybe in a few years when I finish school and have built up some equity and a business plan I can take that adventure. But for now I'm focusing on building up my education and life experience. I'm going to keep trying new recipes and ideas and research more into starting a company. I research and educate myself as much as I can on things before I take the plunge. Hopefully I'm not over thinking this and missing out on an experience. If anyone has cook books they don't use or need or want please let me know, I'd love to take them off your hands. Thank you for the support no matter what I have decided to do in my life!! Love you!

Veni, vidi, vi...c...i...

Ok so I'm definitely working on the conquered part..its not so much that I failed but lets be honest..life is not over :) Its a daily battle for all of us! We all work as hard as we can, we all fight for what we want, we all  struggle on a daily basis with  both the big and little things. Luckily we have our friends, family and of course ourselves! We won't always have people to help pull us up off the ground, so we need to take everyday to build upon our strengths and make our weaknesses become new strengths. Take each day as life lesson in love, education, health, and all around wellness. Of course you will have days, weeks and even months that knock you around and cause you to lose footing, but you can immediately stand up, dust yourself off and move forward. Tomorrow is my new day to dust myself off and get stronger! So with that being said, I need to get some rest for my next big day! Back to work, time to focus on school, my health and wellness.

Love hurts

Thats what I see every time I turn on my car..I programed it into my car screen. But its true.. good or bad. Love hurts. I can be an amazing hurt or a hurt that changes you and makes you have to work hard to pull yourself out of the pain. Its such an awesome thing that an emotion can feel so physical. Except when its the numbing pain of love. Memories always make me smile. I'm one to let go of the bad, even if there was a lot more bad than good. Songs are actually what makes me feel the pain. I spend far too much time listening to songs of heartbreak and sadness. But its all part of healing and being able to move on. Feeling whatever it is you have to, facing it head on. Burying it was never a good thing. I want to be the best version of myself this year. I have to stay healthy, happy, and strong to be able to move on for myself. I want to smile and feel that awesome pain of love again!