3 days..

Ok so I haven't worked out, haven't won the lottery, haven't started to plan traveling the world.. have not changed much except reducing my portions and cutting back on my addiction of nuts and I feel amazing today!! I've been eating clean for a while now but I knew I was overeating. I was finding I was constantly hungry and couldn't feel full no matter how much I would eat in a sitting or even all day! But with a few consistent days of disciple and determination I finally have gotten back to my plan and I feel amazing! I don't have a headache and I can't stop smiling! I can't wait to do some lifting!!!  Hope you all are well and wonderful!! xxo

Tired

Not just because its late but I'm tired of being disappointed in myself! Tired of having excuses, tired of not managing my time well enough!! Starting tomorrow I need to find another level of drive to push myself!! Tired of dreaming, I can do it, I just need to push myself :)  Here comes the hulk!

Before the body, the mind

In order to become physically strong, you must be emotionally ready. If you aren't there in your mind it won't matter what you try to do with your body. Your heart has to be in it 100%. I haven't had that the past few weeks. Its stressful because I so badly want to be at the gym, working hard and then eating clean but with my constant migraines and strange stomach aches, lack of sleep and stress from school its been hard to find the extra emotional strength to push myself. I pretty spent all week eating way too much of everything I enjoy that I am forcing myself to stop buying. I am going to start eating raw/natural. Nothing pre-prepared. From peanut butter to oatmeal packages. Oh god its going to be different. But I don't have the strength to say no, so I need to take control of my life in another way!

So it begins...

So as an excuse to become more healthy and focused on my long term goals I have decided that I will partake in Lent. I'm sure my parents would be happy even if I'm not doing it for religious reasons. But in my goals to move completely away from processed foods, I am giving up "treats". Now to different people this means different things. I am giving up anything that isn't homemade and "natural". For example this means giving up the Carnation instant breakfast powder I use to make my skim milk chocolate. As well as pita chips, Quaker instant oatmeal packets, dried cherries from the store...etc. I eat very clean now so it was hard to say I'm giving anything up per say. So in addition to eating natural and "raw" foods (that doesn't mean uncooked meats), I plan to add 1 session a week with my trainer for my muscles, 1 class a week of yoga for my soul, as well as more sleep each night for my mind. This isn't going to negatively affect school or anything else I am currently invested in, I'm hoping it makes me a greater person all around because you get back what you put out in the world! If you want awesomeness, than you must exude it first! Best of luck everyone in your adventures, if you get lost don't forget there are always people willing to help you find your way back!! xxo

Fat Tuesday

I have definitely lived up that name today!! I plan on taking full advantage of the fact that lent begins tomorrow though. I'm not a religious person by any means, I mean I don't even really believe in heaven and hell. But I am going to take the opportunity for myself to use lent as a means of further disciplining myself and furthering my advancements on myself. I'm not quite sure what that means for me as of yet. I think I may require myself more gym time and to plan out my meals and stick to them for the weeks to come. No extras! Everything will be planned, even desserts..I mean lets not kid myself!! I'm not going without those ;)  I think it would be in my best interest to require more sleep as well!! :)

Positive outlook

I am 24 yrs young!! I own a house! I have a good job! I am going to school and have good grades! I do my best on a daily basis! I love myself!! I love my friends! I love my family! I love my hobbies! I make time for the gym!! I eat healthy! I have an awesome dog! I constantly am trying to improve myself!! I am beautiful! I am funny! I am smart! I'm outgoing, a total catch!! I don't have any debt! I smile often!! I have so much to be thankful for!! I just wanted to make sure its known! A lot of people, including myself on occasion complain about what they don't have or what they want..but I have so much an I love my life the way it is! Nothing in life is perfect, so I'm going to enjoy it just the way it is!! I am excited about my future for the first time in a long time! I have goals and aspirations and as long as I surround myself with positive people who love me and continue to work hard, I will achieve them all in time!

I need an assistant!!

Busy busy busy!! Thats all I've been lately! I'm finally figured out how not to sleep but function at optimal efficiency!! My calendar is filled all the way out till MAY!!! Yes you heard me correctly, May! Not one weekend am I completely free to relax at home. Its crazy! I literally just went through my phone trying to find time but no. I work, or have visitors every weekend! Anyone know of an assistant I can hire for free?! ;)
Oh and I need more hours in the day and the gym to stay open later..and a winning lottery ticket too please! Thx!!!